Transparency: Trusting God
A lot of people have this misconception that Christianity breeds perfection in every area of your life, as if once we confess Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior that we will no longer struggle with sin and that storms will no longer come to test us. That misconception is definitely untrue. Another common misconception is the notion that trusting God is a cakewalk, when in fact it is not. Now the Bible teaches us to be anxious for nothing because all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord, for me, that is sometimes easier said than done. God has always provided for me, he has always made sure that my needs were met even when I strayed his grace and mercy covered me but sometimes I am extremely hypocritical in that I trust God but I worry as well even if just for the briefest moment.
I've recently just moved from Dallas, Tx to Las Vegas, Nv and I would be lying to you if I said I that I haven't felt an ounce of anxiety. This last week was practically an overwhelming anxiety tsunami that blanketed my thought process and clouded my mind. It was almost debilitating. I had so many emotions rushing through me at once from excitement to fear. Because although I was excited to be in a new a place with new opportunities, I was also worried about how I would navigate this new place in order to reach those opportunities. Let's add those feelings with the fact that right now our finances are T I G H T, and you can easily see how I could arrive at the point I was at emotionally. However, even with all those things cycling through my mind I still had to hold true to what I know:
that God will never put more on me than I can bear and that he has a plan for my life even when I feel like I am losing my mind.
What I've learned over the last year and a half about myself, is that I tend to let the things going on in my life overtake me the most when I am not in God's Word the way I should be and when I'm not devoting the time to God that I should be devoting. When that happens my focus decreases and I begin to overthink things that God has already worked out in my favor. I'm beginning to get to the point to where when I feel myself taking a turn mentally and emotionally for the worse I reevaluate what I have been feeding my spirit, in other words,
have I been feeding my spirit things that will keep me mentally strong and focused or have been feeding spirit junk?
Our faith is much like our bodies, what we put in is what we will get out so if we are feeding our spirits things that are toxic and unbeneficial the fruit of our lives will show that. In the end, trusting God can sometimes seem easier said than done, because we don't always understand why he bringing us through certain things or why certain things are happening to us, but I believe without a shadow of a doubt that
If God brings me to it, he will bring me through it.