Can you believe we are only four days away from the New Year? This year literally flashed before my eyes. Before the year closes, I want to share my faith journey so far with you.
I started 2018 out fasting from secular music and reading the books of Proverbs and Psalms which is something I’d tried to do many times before but was unable or maybe a better word is unmotivated to do. Once I finished my fast and reading those two books of the Bible, I realized just how thirsty I was to grow my relationship with God and how much I wanted and needed to know him more. In the previous years I’d slacked off considerably when it came to my faith walk. I wasn’t reading my Bible, I wasn’t praying unless I needed something from God, and I was getting into all kind of trouble and making very poor decisions. I’d adapted toxic behavioral patterns, and had no clue who I was when I looked at myself in the mirror. When I became pregnant with my son, and started dealing with pregnancy related health issues I decided enough was enough. I was tired of knowing what to do and not doing it so, I began reading Bible Plans using my Bible App, praying, and letting God work on my heart.
This year has been one full of change and has dealt its fair share of challenges both internally and externally. My fathers health has been far from what it should be, I’ve been trying to figure out motherhood which is a challenge in itself, and marriage has proved to be more difficult than I thought it would be. I moved 17 hours away from Dallas,Tx to Las Vegas,Nv to join my husband and the minute I arrived within the city limits of sin city I began to deal with massive feelings of anxiety and fear.
It became apparent to me in that moment and every other moment that I’ve faced that I need Jesus. I’m not saying I didn’t have him before but I’m saying I really realized that I needed him to be in my life, everyday if I was going to make it. While my family continues to cover me in prayer, I’m essentially on my own now and it’s up to me to cover my home and my family in prayer. Which meant that I needed to read my word daily, because you can’t pray effectively is you aren’t reading you word.
Reading and meditating on the Word of God has been my biggest faith goal this year. I’ve fallen short of the goal many times, but I never let my shortcomings discourage me from starting over time and time again.
What I’ve learned this year is that God’s Grace and Mercy is everlasting, and that his word does not return to him void. In other words, if God says he’s going to do something then he will do it in his timing. This year my love for Jesus has grown beyond my wildest dreams. I remember hearing people speak quite often of how they loved Jesus so immensely and wondering if that same overwhelming scream to the mountain tops feeling was possible for me, and I am happy to say it is. I love Jesus y’all.
I have a lot of growing left to do, but I can honestly say my growth so far is surreal. God showed out this year. I’m extremely happy about where I am in my Faith Journey thus far and am so excited to continue to share and walk with you.